I had the difficult conversation of saying NO and declining this position that was offered to me. Pushed on me? Pressured on me? Heavily suggested I need this in my life!
I know I was disappointing my boss but I have to stay true to myself. I hate that feeling of disappointing her. She is wonderful and I love her. I was flattered she thought I could do a great job at it, but ultimately I had to stick with my gut.
I felt awful afterward. I was proud of myself that I did it over the phone. It would have been easier as an email. I felt I owed her a phone call. I know she is in a tough spot. I told her I could help be an advisor or assist with small projects with the person they choose, but I didn’t want that responsibility of building what she wanted me to build. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest.
Things I don’t like:
disappointing people
having difficult conversations with people
people - the ones that I don’t know and are acting foolish!
The rest of the day sailed by until my computer mouse just stopped working. Damn it! I had to call IT. Once I finally got a person, we were able to resolve it in 15 minutes. Phew!
The wind was crazy! Paul lost power at work and came home early. Ethan stayed late and got home a little later.
Paul worked on some things in Ethan’s barn this evening.
I puttered round the house not really accomplishing much. I did wash all the couch cushion covers and pillow covers. I vacuumed all the cushions and under the cushions. So that was at least something useful.
Even though it was windy, I enjoyed having the windows open and feeling the breeze! I was glad I wasn’t up at camp. I bet it is wild up there!
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So proud of you for following your gut! At this stage of our lives, we don't need to add more stress into our lives. We have enough already. We also don't need to prove ourselves or be pressured into things. I don't think you'll regret your decision. Bravo! xoxo Melis
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