Ethan’s Journey

​ I think about all the hellish mornings spent trying to be the first one to the shower to reduce the amount of hair found in the drain at the hospital. Just wanting a clean-ish shower. Worrying that if I wasn’t the first person, the air could be contaminated as I removed my mask for 15 minutes a day to clean myself. Worrying I might bring Covid back to my healing kid. My morning now is so much better. I told Avery for years I wanted a remote job for my sanity. I feel like I have hit the jackpot. I enjoy work. I enjoy it even more with a beautiful and peaceful office. I am so grateful. Ethan made a YouTube video where he shared his feelings about how things have gone for him the past 6 years. His constant stress about his health, the constant worry he isn’t as far along as he would like to be…. While I don’t love his excessive use of the F  word, he expressed how he feels and the challenges he has faced from his perspective. https://youtu.be/hj4Usa_yxTk?is=1KPVGei12-we_tFs He recog...

​My friends are funny! This morning I had a friend reach out saying that she, like Moe yesterday, was airing out her crotch. She also works from home and said “Business from the neck up and party on the bottom.” This made me laugh. I appreciated the laugh and the cleverness! I do appreciate silly humor. Can you imagine if people acted like dogs? “Hey how are you doing? Can I smell your butt?” Ridiculous! But my immature humor laughs at the thought. Or can you imagine just dropping your butt and dragging it across someone’s floor? Mid conversation, dropping trousers and scooting? Ha! Gross! It was SO windy today. Poor Jiminy was not impressed with walking in the wind. It was 22 miles per hour and I am sure it felt like hurricanes strength to him. I had some light sprinkle off and on but not much. The wind was more problematic. The wind rearranged the brush pile I had stacked neatly. I had taken the branches I cut off and piled them neatly by the fire pit. Tomorrow I will have to re-stac...

​The geese were ballsy today. This is my current drama. I sent Penny out to chase them off of our property. She did a great job! Good girl Penny! No sheets or rape whistles needed ha ha! The weather was a little stormy today. I enjoyed the few rumbles of thunder we had but most weather seemed to go “up the river” and miss us. We had off and on rain but plenty of time for the dogs to walk up the road. I was finally able to look up the information Ethan’s heart team was looking for in my blog. They were seeing a spot of non-movement in his heart that was concerning but after discussing things with them, it appears to be residual from Ethan’s stroke and clots in his heart after transplant.  I can’t remember all the details and was thankful to my 2020 self for doing this. I made a large pot of spaghetti that I plan to nibble on over the next few days. Some of the meals went in the freezer. Moe had silliness in his bones today. He was sleeping soundly with his legs spread open. He was a...

​Paul set up my bird feeder that alerts me when birds are eating. The birds have all told their friends about it and I have been enjoying them feasting on the open buffet we provided for them. Mama killdeer was on the road I walk the dogs on, with her babies this morning. She began squawking at me as soon as we started up the road. I cut the walk short so that I wouldn’t stress her out. Paul was worried last night because he asked me if I locked the camper door. I was in bed and had forgotten to lock the door. “No” I said.  “What if someone tries to get in while you’re sleeping.” “I am not going to get up at this point! I assure you that Moe will not let that happen.”  If someone was dumb enough to try to break into the camper with 4 dogs, they deserve the dog attacks they would receive. Survival of the fittest!  Also, MY first line of defense is biting. It causes a nasty infection and then dental records can be used to match the wound up to my teeth. I will be able to fi...

​today was a much sunnier and pleasant day than yesterday. We started the day with coffee of course, and one by one people started to go home to get back to reality.  I feel quite lucky that I am able to stay up this week with the dogs. I embrace alone time. It helps me think and process things. I checked on the killdeer babies this morning. The three babies that hatched were gone as well as their eggs. Baby number 4 was still trying to hatch. I was concerned this little thing wasn’t going to make it as it had started to hatch the day before and was still in the process. I checked back a little later and this little fighter was hatched and sitting alone. Mom was not in sight. Mom had been quite involved with the babies so I thought this was a little weird.  It was making soft killdeer noises and they were so cute. As the day went on, I noticed mom was attending to the newest baby. She would periodically disappear then come back. At one point I went up the road and saw the mom ...

​The weather was unfortunate for a weekend at the lake. However, a little bad weather isn’t going to get us down. Through the different showers we had, we were still able to enjoy the outside even if it was under an awning. The dogs got a couple walks in between the rain events. We listened to music, chatted and laughed remembering things from childhood or early adulthood. I checked on the Killdeer eggs. Two of them had hatched….OMG! It’s happening!!!! I had to get photos and share the news with the neighbor whose yard they were in. They were kind enough to protect this little family with cones, so no one ran over the nest. They are born with all their feathers and with the ability to forage for food on day 1. I kept peaking in on them. The babies are doing well so far! I will feel better when they are out of their road. What a crap day to be born! Nature is fun to watch! The afternoon was full of music, sitting and chatting and snacks! Just the kind of Saturday Paul and I needed. We w...