Ethan’s Journey

 This morning I woke up with a migraine. It made my stomach feel nauseous. This happens when I don’t drink enough but could also be a combination of allergies too.. So I pushed the fluids, added electrolytes and began dreading SSA meeting. Ethan and I had a conversation about him feeling like he is being kicked down. He is frustrated. I don’t blame him. He went off to work with his head hung low. When he got to work, he started venting via text. He said he is tired of dealing with disappointment after disappointment and feels like he has lost his ability to feel joy. Ugh! I hated reading that. I reassured him that we weren’t going to let him fall and would be close by in the event he needed help. We were trying to set him up for success. I vented to Sarah that I wasn’t feeling well, Ethan was down in the dumps and it was a crappy way to start a Monday. Bah humbug! She then shared her Monday started with catching herself on FIRE! As a good friend would do, I laughed out loud. Geez! ...

 Yesterday we were on the run all day long. We had Ethan helping as well, lifting, carrying, going up and down the stairs, just going all day long. He looks healthy. But on the inside his body is working extra hard to keep some form of homeostasis. Today he and Paul were working on moving things around. He was back at it again. He crashed hard. Took a very long nap this afternoon. I left him alone and let him sleep. I can’t imagine having to deal with that nonsense at 23 years old. We had our Mother’s Day celebration. It was fun and we had yummy food. After we were done eating, I had Avery hand out the Mother’s Day cards. Everyone put their cards on one table. She grabbed all the cards except OURS! I found the cards hours later. Ugh! Well, we will hand them out another day! Avery will be mortified when she finds out. I probably won’t even tell her because no good will come of it. She was a great help today! Tomorrow is our stupid phone call about Ethan paying back the overpayment f...

 Today was a work day. We are celebrating Mother’s Day tomorrow since I will be globe trotting on Mother’s Day. My brother came to town again to help my Mom and Gene move. We have been carting stuff from one spot to the next. Ethan is taking some shelving for his barndominium. He is excited about the shelving. He is still bummed it isn’t dry out. We spent the majority of the day carting thins here and there. It was great exercise and I was thankful for that. I do like the added benefit of exercise when I am focused on a different task. Ethan got his bloodwork done again today. He was excited that his GFR (the rate he filters his blood) has improved by a few points. We finally received communication that Ethan has to pay back the $12,000 the government mistakenly paid him over the course of several months. We received a letter today saying we have a phone call meeting on Monday at 9:30. Nothing like a decent heads up. It was after hours so Ethan couldn’t call his work and report. I ...

 According to Democrat and Chronically, we have had 10 inches of rain in the March-April stretch in 2026. That is the highest rainfall we have had in the past 153 years. TYPICALLY THE NUMBER SITS around 3.2 inches. Poor Ethan doesn’t feel like he will EVER be able to move into his new place. He needs the contractor to grad his floor and yard before any talks of concrete work can begin. They can do that because it is so WET! Because all emotions (generalized statement I know) of men from the ages of 14-25 present as anger, he is frustrated but presenting as angry.  It was raining when he got home from work. He was venting about the weather. I left his anger cloud to go visit a PUPPY! Our friends new puppy. He is absolutely adorable and fits in with their other dogs. I totally lost track of time because…well…it was a puppy and I got chatting. Avery had texted me to let me know she was on her way home. It’s like a celebrity is visiting so I rushed home. I knew she was coming, I t...

 After my physical, I discussed getting established with a dermatologist and a cardiologist due to family history. I need to take care of myself to help take care of others right? I called two different offices. The cardiology office the person I spoke with was delightful and even gave me a tip that would avoid me frustration at my appointment. I got off the phone with a pleasant feeling about the cardiologist. The second office was dermatology. The lady I spoke with had the personality of a dried up cancerous mole. She was not pleasant at all. I wonder what the training protocols are for customer service there that are different from the first office.  I am a delight when I call. I try to be upbeat in case the are having a bad day, agreeable and don’t share too much. I am direct. “Good morning (I am chipper) I would like to make a new patient appointment.”  The rash (I am going to call her rash because she was as pleasant as a bad rash.) was just hating her job today....

 Today I had my annual physical. Why are appointments so exhausting? They shouldn’t be. I think they suck my energy.  In the waiting room there was an older lady. She had to be a little hard of hearing due to the volume of her voice. She needed to call her ride and there was a phone near the exit. She was unable to complete her call. Something was withholding the call from going out. I let her borrow my phone. She cracked me up. I was happy to help! I put on a lovely paper towel gown and everything. Basically I am pretty healthy but need to exercise more. Yuck! Who wants to do that? I wish sleeping was considered exercise. I would be ripped! My Mom and Gene are starting a new chapter today. I am excited for them on their new adventures. After work, I did some chores. Ethan and I had an unspoken date to watch our show. Paul bailed and scheduled a man play-date with a few friends. He has been running ragged the past several days.  Rain, rain  go away!!!!!!