Ethan’s Journey

 I had the difficult conversation of saying NO and declining this position that was offered to me. Pushed on me? Pressured on me? Heavily suggested I need this in my life! I know I was disappointing my boss but I have to stay true to myself. I hate that feeling of disappointing her. She is wonderful and I love her. I was flattered she thought I could do a great job at it, but ultimately I had to stick with my gut. I felt awful afterward. I was proud of myself that I did it over the phone. It would have been easier as an email. I felt I owed her a phone call. I know she is in a tough spot. I told her I could help be an advisor or assist with small projects with the person they choose, but I didn’t want that responsibility of building what she wanted me to build. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. Things I don’t like:  disappointing people  having difficult conversations with people people - the ones that I don’t know and are acting foolish! The rest of the ...

 I woke up this morning and Paul asked me if I remembered him waking me up because I was snoring. I did not remember as I slept so soundly and beautifully. He then shared my response to his accusations of snoring. “You snore!…… I am a lady. I don’t snore.” He found this comical. I told him this morning….even in my sleep I tell jokes. I was most certainly snoring. Another day and more pressure from leadership to accept this new position. I tried to approach it with an open mind but my gut is screaming “No-Way!” My gut is usually spot on. I went to the dentist and got my crown. My idea of a crown is something that sparkles and is so pretty!  Did you know this crown looks like it was made out of tooth material? Not sparkles. What a rip off. It should be called a tooth hat. That is what it is essentially. I told them that the appointment certainly was not what I expected. Dropped $1400.00 and nothing is shiny or made of diamonds. I thought I was leaving with a crown!  I then ...

​today it seemed on problem came after the next. They weren’t overly complex, but just never eased up. After 10 hours I finally shut my computer and quit for the evening.  The dogs got to go on a walk a few times today. I have been leaving Ferguson behind. He doesn’t want to run fast, he wants to mosey. He had several chances to mosey around the yard today-his favorite. We had a 3 person family meeting about the next two weeks as it will be quite busy.  The poison ivy rash is winning so far. I may need medical intervention to win. Either way….i am going to win this battle. I just need to call for back up.

I was approached by leadership today with an opportunity to do a different job. It would still sort of be recruiting but working with students. I was flattered they thought I could make the program successful, but I am very hesitant as I like my team and where I am currently am. I made a pros and cons list. I have to give some sort of answer by tomorrow. It was heavy on my mind. It dominated my afternoon thoughts. I had a running pros and cons list. Ugh! After work, I went to dinner with a friend. I gave her a cottage core birthday mug. It had flowers on it with surprises in the middle. She loved it. We laughed! We had margaritas with dinner. We chatted and caught up. It was a nice evening. When I got home, Ethan had fed the dogs without being asked. Wow!!! This is such progress. I went to bed early.

  The dogs crack me up. They do live a good morning snooze in the sunshine. I visited and had dinner with Mom and Gene this evening. They are having a blast at their new place. Avery came to visit on her way home from work as well. I was delighted my mom kept the little snowmen that I would hide for her to find around the house. Avery and I hid some. I like the thought of her smiling when she finds one. Silly game meant to bring joy. Avery got the tour of the new place.  Mom and Gene took us to dinner at one of the restaurants. Everyone is so nice there. Everyone says “hello”, the windows are bright and cheerful and we enjoyed visiting. We were laughing at Mema and were talking about how she should run people over with her scooter if they piss her off.  Avery talked through her thoughts on her next steps. She has options and a plan. We had large bowls of ice cream for dessert. Yum! Gene got 4 scoops of ice cream! He was so happy! When I got home Ethan had already fed the ...

​Carrie- they did have Lake Shore Fog they were serving. 😁 Today we had a leisurely morning. Heather and I sat around and talked about the events of the weekend with Paul and Jason. We had many laughs about awkward conversations, high lights and just commenting on different people we met or spoke to. Paul and I got on the road to camp. We arrived at camp a little after 11 am. We stopped and grabbed a breakfast sandwich on our way. I didn’t spend much time at camp. I was able to put some things away, get an inventory of items that I need to bring up.  We visited with Lois and Craig for a bit as the rain was hammering down. We assessed the damage to the dock from wild weather several days ago. The dock has seen its last days and is currently in hospice.  I realized that I will be unable to go up next weekend with Father’s Day and not being able to juggle the dogs appropriately. That is fine. I will manage. Ethan said he got lots done with the fireworks and feels ready for his f...

 The beds are so hard. Shockingly, it isn’t too bad for sleeping. I slept well. We had beautiful weather today. A nice breeze so it felt “just right” outside. We went to the breakfast and lunch provided.  Heather and I walked around campus, went to the book store and listened to the birds through the Merlin app. It was disappointing there was nothing special that was recorded. I am not sure if I was expecting a blue footed booby to pop up on the ap. Bit there were just boring birds like Robins. After lunch, we stayed mostly in the courtyard of the dorm we were staying at. There were Adirondack chairs, picnic tables and tents to sit under to escape the sun. There was music on and it was a good vibe. One of our sorority sisters came out to visit Heather and I. We have known her well over 25 years. It was fun to visit with her. There were activities set up for us in the afternoon. They had a beer/wine tasting set up. They had good beer too. I had a hazy IPA -citrus fog by Souther...