9/3/25

 Everyday that passes is one day closer to the mess that is my job right now, to become a little less chaotic and overwhelming. Each day that comes to an end is leaving me mentally drained. 

With the overwhelming tornado at my work, I had forgotten about a text a good friend sent me. I read the text. I responded to the text saying “I will call you soon.” I then forgot all about calling, fairly quickly. 

This friend was reaching out and asking for help/emotional support. I didn’t show up for it today. I got lost in the work and became self absorbed. I was bummed that she wasn’t able to count on me today. Of course she wasn’t upset with me, because she is such a kind person.

I look forward to the weekends because it is a break from the constant mental exercise. I am not alone on my team. Others have been feeling the same way. 

I finally had to shut my computer after hour 11 of work. Even though I wasn’t finished with my tasks today.  I scheduled extra time for the rest of this week and next to be able to answer and check my emails uninterrupted.

I looked at my phone and saw that Ethan’s heart biopsy had been scheduled. Now that his medication has been adjusted, they want to make sure there is no rejection at a cellular level. If there is rejection starting, it will be in the early stages and be treatable, but we would have to go back to the drawing board for medication adjustments.

I still have not dealt with the insurance denial of coverage for Ethan’s nuclear studies. I am dreading dealing with the process of that. Some days it gets overwhelming and I try again the next day when my mind set is more equipped to deal with it.

I had to reorder several of Ethan’s medications today. Shoutout to the incredible pharmacy (Hilton Family Pharmacy) and how much they invest into their craft. I spoke with the pharmacist today and he is so compassionate and wonderful. It beats the cookie cutter treatment from big pharmacies. When I call and they know how to spell our last name, I am impressed.

I am nervous that insurance will deny coverage of the heart biopsy, since we have already received a denial of coverage letter from July. Either way, he has to get the biopsy done. We will figure the rest out later.

I spent the evening going through bills and ordering my groceries for pick up tomorrow. I will have some other errands to run as well. I will swing by Avery and Kendall’s so that I can visit with them and the cats. I will drop off some kitty food for them.

I am excited to hear how classes are going for them both.