8/3/25

 When I woke up on Saturday morning, as I walked out of my room, my eyes scanned Avery’s room. There is no bed. Most of her belongings are gone. It felt empty. I had a wash of sadness. There she goes. It really happens in a blink of an eye.

I don’t want to focus on the last. That was the last night she spent in her bed, in her room as my little girl. This is the first. This is her first apartment. Her first “home” she can decorate with her own furniture, dishes, silverware etc. this feels more exciting. It IS exciting.

You work really hard as a parent to help teach and coach your kids to be functioning and sustainable in society. Kendall has become our family and I am proud of them both.

Now is their time to navigate adult things with us close by. If we need to step in and help, we can, but otherwise we are just in the wings providing love and moral support with a side of sarcasm and humor.

I did more meal prepping today. I want the boys to have options. I have make a lot of different options for them over the next few weeks.

I changed our sheets and am excited to lay down in clean, wonderful smelling sheets. I get so excited for this day each time. 

It really is the little things that bring me joy. Clean sheets, clean dogs, meal prepping and knowing no one is going hungry…

We met my cousin and his girlfriend for dinner. We sat outside at a local bar. Our waitress was young and the service was mediocre. But the company was great! They gave me a belated birthday gift. I absolutely love it! It is a BEACH TOWEL of my perfect little angel on the boat, complete with his life vest (that is a shark) and his sun hat, so his noggin doesn’t burn. 

After dinner the dogs and I went for a walk and I just mulled over all of the business of the weekend. I started making a plan to tackle this week. I have that $12,000 billion that I need to deal with. The sooner the better. Calling on a Monday could be dangerous.

Ethan meets with his nephrologist this week. We can’t have a week go by without appointments, that would be silly.

Paul has to attend a meeting on Tuesday to present his plans for the barn. Hoping all goes well with that. 

I am going to snuggle into my fresh, clean sheets and smile myself to sleep. They make me happy.