8/6/24

I haven’t been sleeping the greatest. I woke up early and agitated at everything. I feel like the wind is out of my sails a little bit. I realized that I am feeling like there isn’t much in my control right now. I had the immense desire to clean the house, because that is the only control I have.

I asked Avery for help. She came to the rescue and did the dishes, cleaned in the den and helped settle those nerves that were making my eye twitch.

We went to lunch with my mom and had a really yummy meal. Avery came too. It was a nice lunch.

When we got home, I called Ethan’s doctor’s office. I am feeling uneasy about the test results from last week and want to make sure it is ok to wait on the testing until the end of the month. I am feeling very unsettled and I can’t shake it. Our lady was out of the office so I am hoping that she will call tomorrow. I am hoping to convey to her that I don’t need pussyfooting, I need blunt statements about what they think is going on.

Paul started his prep for his colonoscopy. He was dashing to the bathroom every two minutes. He hasn’t eaten anything and is hangry. I tried not to talk to him. 

I saw my Sarah today. She lights up my world.

After being over crotchety this morning, the day moved on and I became less crotchety. I am tired tonight and home to sleep all the way through the night.