8/20/25

 I pulled up my big girl britches today and decided I didn’t want a repeater of yesterday. Change is hard. Learning new things is hard. Being “not miserable” about it…is also hard.

I approached the day with a “I am going to make this day my bitch” attitude. Also while reciting to myself “I am only one person.”

I started with one task. I am behind in everything. Not even just a little behind….under water in an ocean and breathing through a straw as the waves hit it.

I took one thing at a time. I likely forgot to do things. I likely gave out misinformation. I showed up, tried to be as pleasant as possible and made it through the day. That’s winning right?

After work I had several errands and chores to complete. I ended up having an in depth conversation with someone regarding holding on to anger. We all do it. I am working on letting things go and accepting ignorance happens (doesn’t always work) and not holding on to it. “You” problems and “me” problems. “Me” problems are the ones that I can control. “You” problems, I can control my response. It is a fine art that I am trying to practice. Some days are better than others.

Tomorrow my Sarah sends her oldest off to college. She is weathering those feelings. It will forever change the house for them. I can remember when Avery left. It was quiet in the house.

Lucy is eating like a champ.