Ethan’s Journey

 Avery went to work with me today. She enjoys helping to revive the puppies after c-sections. We then went grocery shopping and I did some mowing. Ethan was a bit tired today. He slept the majority of the afternoon until I woke him up for his 9 pm medications. He says he feels fine. Maybe he just over did it and was worn out. Sleeping was probably the best thing for him. I also took a nap today. It was a short one though. Jiminy and I snuggled on the couch and napped. He is a great cuddle buddy. I then realized Ferguson was cuddled up with us too. It was what I imagine heaven to be like. Paul returned home from the thousand islands. It was good to have him back home.

 I worked a good portion of the day. Avery came in towards the end to help with puppy revival for the C-sections we did at work. I like having her at work. I enjoy her company.  This afternoon was spent doing adult things like laundry, poop scooping and tiring the dogs out.  I also had to prepare documents for Ethan’s fall semester and submit items to Medicaid. All totally exciting activities. Avery and I watched a show while I did some banking. Ethan joined us in between his garage projects. At the end of the evening, he and I had a good chat about school, his frustrations with one of his teachers and the antics that happen within the class. I was thankful for this chat because as Ethan was talking, he was venting. He was also smiling and laughing. I haven’t seen his smile in a long time. I am hoping that this medication increase has been helpful for him to make a little progress in now feeling as down all the time.

I woke up this morning feeling like I was 100 years old. Everything was stuff and I walked funny for the first couple minutes. I was shuffling my feet, was hunched over…..I was a walking disaster. I did 10 minutes of yoga with a YouTube instructor, and felt so much better. We could all learn more from animals. They always stretch.why am I not incorporating this into my daily routine? My therapist told me a couple years ago that I need to perfect the art of setting boundaries. It would in turn protect my sanity. Setting boundaries has always been hard for me because I don’t want to disappoint people. Today I set a boundary and stuck to it. I was so thankful to myself because of it. I knew if I did t set this boundary, I would have to deal with something I didn’t want to. I loved NOT dealing with it. I did worry that I might be considered as being “difficult”. I was proud of myself for sticking to my boundary. I remained mostly respectful when I did it too. That is a bonus. “Set boundari

 Happy birthday to me. I worked today. My co-workers made it fun. I then left work early to go to the OBGYN. I know….exciting.  I didn’t schedule it like that, the OBGYN sent me a postcard to let me know they rescheduled my appointment from a different day to…my birthday, and I was too lazy to call and reschedule.  So I just sucked it up. Luckily, things seem ship shape with my undercarriage. I left the OBGYN, only to return about 20 minutes later after realizing I left my phone there. Oops. Could have been worse. I got home and realized that I was put on warning by Facebook due to an inappropriate comment I wrote about a man that had sexually assaulted and abused a 7 year old girl for a little over 2 years. Apparently my comment “invoked violence”. I stand by my comment and do NOT take it back. It did invoke violence….toward a pedophile’s junk, to prevent him from striking again.…….I have a zero tolerance policy for pedophiles.  Paul and I went to dinner at a Mexican place. I ordered

I had a doctor’s appointment this morning bright and early. It was a wellness appointment. Turns out I am well. Yeah. I did some chores and then worked out in the yard. Sweat was running in my eyes. I was hot. I was weeding, which seems to be mostly what I am growing. I was thinking about how last year I was aching to be in the garden, but couldn’t because of dialysis. I am so glad that is over. After a few hours I came inside and immediately felt so tired. Avery and I watched the documentary on the rise and fall of Victoria Secret’s. It was quite interesting. Ethan and I talked a little bit about life in general. He bought some solar panels to put on his car when he travels so he has access to electricity. He might be going away for the weekend again. Yeah! Avery’s spot is feeling better to her. The antibiotics are kicking the snot out of the bacteria. Good. We go for a surgical consult next week in the event it doesn’t fully clear up or reoccurs which is likely. So far there are no p

Avery felt much better today and ever went to work on the farm. She is tough as nails. Ethan had his appointment today and his doctor thinks he needs to increase one of his medications. She also said the combination of age, medication and personality have all contributed to the depression he is experiencing. Ethan told me about his trip today. I valued the conversation and letting me peek into his world a little. He is planning another trip soon. I do feel that he is really trying to make an effort to be more social and appreciative of his family. Tomorrow I have quite a line up of chores. I am hoping to make a large dent in my list. I included a couple walks in the field with the dogs on my list. I was told once that “self care” should always be on your list of things to do.

 Poor Avery. We went to the doctor’s today. She was quite painful from her cyst/abscess. She didn’t work today because she was so uncomfortable. We get to the doctor’s office and they put us in this room we have never been in before. It was clear this room was used for wounds, injuries etc. The doctor came in to assess the situation. She discussed options with us and told us that it was called a pilonidal cyst. She referred us to a plastic surgeon in the event that it does not go away. In the interim, she asked Avery if she wanted the cyst drained. Brave Ave said “yes”. She really is a tough kid. She wanted some relief. The doctor had a white shirt on.  She decided it would be best to put a protective gown on because she has had these things “spray” at her before. I was so excited to watch. I know that sounds twisted, but I stick my finger up Dog’s and cats butts…..for work of course….so nothing really grossed me out (except those ropey dog drools). This doctor put on a face shield. Sh