Ethan’s Journey

 Happy Easter! We kicked off our morning with an Easter egg hunt for the kids. It’s fun to watch, they have fun, and Paul and I giggle about where we hide the eggs. It’s silly and a good tradition. It also adds excitement to the air. It was a beautiful day so after I prepared my breakfast for the family-( it was just bacon, I only cooked bacon. I was feeling lazy.) we spent time out in the yard. All of us! Including the dogs and the rabbit. We all got our exercise. We headed to Mema and Beba’s for dinner. My brother, his wife and her parents and aunt were there. We missed Paul’s sister and parents. Nana and Papa weren’t feeling well. They have been battling Covid. The afternoon was fun and the food was great. We did a lot of laughing. I am so glad I had time this weekend to get away from work. I needed to clear my mind. I had a conversation with a friend recently about Karma. I am a firm believer that what goes around, comes around.  I try to do nice things for people, but sometimes I

 I wish weekends were longer. Today flew by. There simply isn’t enough time to get everything accomplished. I think it is probably because I have been working so many hours lately. It is taking its toll. Damn my work ethic! The weather was nice so I decided to kick everything outside. We were all outside, including the dogs and rabbit. Poor aging Theo. When he hops, sometimes he falls over. He is an aging dude! He is 10. When I brought him in, he promptly fell asleep. I did some weeding, bathed all the dogs and some house work. I also did meal prep.  Ethan had a few friends over. This evening the boys were watching age appropriate TV. It was silly, a little bit risqué and they were all laughing their butts off. I still find these moments precious. Every time I see or hear this type of stuff, i am so thankful I got another chance to hear, see and laugh with Ethan. His friends are nice kids too! Unfair things happen all around us! It is important to go through the grieving process as you

Sarah and I met up this afternoon for her birthday celebration with me. We did a little thrifting, ate dinner at Outback Steakhouse and headed to the hotel. Our plan was super boring.  We put our pajama pants on, watched HGTV, did our scratch off’s with our bellies full and happy. Living it up little a couple of middle aged women. We may have had an alcoholic beverage or three. It’s the little things….that are actually the big things.

 Transferring Ethan’s kidney care to Rochester is one frustrating roadblock after another. It has been a huge game of phone tag. Trying to collect documents. Rochester seems like they don’t have their act together and this is frightening as we place our trust in a team that we already can’t trust. This process has been going on since the fall and I can’t even fathom why it has taken 6 months to coordinate an appointment. Actually we don’t even have an appointment. I am sick of this week. It has been frustrating and I give it two thumbs down. It seems like nothing has been easy this week. It is punishment for going on vacation. I am glad tomorrow is Friday. This evening I announced to Paul that I hated this week and I was going to have a drink. He pointed out a few good things that happened and told me to look at the glass half full.  “Fine. I will! My glass is HALF FULL of tequila!” And it was (mixed with some lime and a few other things). It is Sarah’s birthday today. Tomorrow we are

 Today went much better than yesterday, but it sure was busy. Paul worked on getting the document we needed for our insurance dilemma. He emailed it to me. In the first paragraph I was named “Patricia”…in the second paragraph I was named “Linda”. Hmmmm. Looks like that copy past didn’t go well. I called Paul. When he answered I said “sooooooo….who is Linda?” He was all pissed because he had to reach out and request yet another letter. I also had to call about Ethan’s kidney referral, again. Good thing he isn’t having an urgent matter. No one called me back today. 😩 I am tired due to Paul sawing wood last night. He was brag snoring. “Look at all the good sleep I am getting” he said with each thunderous snore. Tonight Penny felt that she should sleep in the bed with us. She is such a mole in the bed. Twisting and turning all over. She was so excited though. I couldn’t crush her dreams and say “No”. One step closer to the weekend.

 I had a yucky day. I made a dumb mistake at work and it resulted in me looking really stupid. I hate that. I was mad at myself. I made a plan to correct it so that it wouldn’t happen again, however, I stewed about it all day. I don’t like making mistakes and understand we all do, but it was so foolish it just pissed me off. It resulted in me apologizing for being a dumbass to a few different people. I do think it is important to admit your mistakes, address them and then try and learn from them.  I could have tried to defend the mistake or lie about it, but what does that solve? Adds a layer of mistrust…which I also hate and isn’t really my style. I stewed for the rest of the evening and what I could have done differently. I was glad Paul went to bowling. I was a curmudgeon.  Then I got the news that we are having an insurance issue for Paul, myself and Avery. Good news is that it isn’t Ethan for once. Yay! I anticipate a battle to get it solved.  I have noticed that as I age, my anno

 Did you experience anything different with the geomagnetic storm that was happening? I had some technology issues today but it’s hard to say if they were due to a geomagnetic storm OR because technology is a pain in the ass….both scientific terms. Ethan has been home and not working.  He does have some appointments coming up that will be convenient to have him home. He seems more personable than he did while he was working. He has been practicing to take the test for a CDL license. I got home from the night shift around 7 am. I caught a quick nap before my 9:30 meeting. I had meetings until a little after 3. I took another hour long nap and started my two hours of interviews.  These days are tough. I felt a bit tired and cranky. But what I did stop to notice was that Lady and Lord Cardinal like my bird feeder. They are fancy. I noticed that my daffodils are trying to rebound from the crushing snow. I took a moment to smell the outdoors, close my eyes and listen. The peepers were singi