3/5/25

 Today I woke up and was ready to prepare for Moe’s appointment. I did all the things I knew how to do. I took him for a walk (in the rain). I gave him a bath. I gave him long lasting snacks to keep him awake, then gave him a nice sedative. 

We went for his appointment and he sat in the car like a good boy the whole way there. We god out and his tail went down, his anxiety went up and he was on edge.

He did well with cautiously greet the female, but man, the men with beards got a low and burly growl along with a healthy dose of stink eye.

He was scared of the scale but got over his fear pretty quickly when mom started bossing him around.

Moe was good for his blood draw. I covered his eyes and held him tight for it. No flinching.

He was not so good for his pokes. We had to distract with food and thump petting. Once he was done, I stood and talked for a bit. These used to be my coworkers and I do miss them. It was nice to catch up. Moe relaxed a little. He even went over to the beardiest man there and sniffed his pants without growling. 

He left another man walk near him but the stink eye was full blown.

Bottom line, he did it. He made it through. He got home and slept until dinner. Yay!

I was delighted to hear that the ducks I left around a friend’s house were passed along to more people, creating a smile ripple effect. We need more of that.

I had a good chat with one of my previous co-workers regarding being a kidney donor. She donated her kidney about a year ago. She has felt fatigued and not herself since. She was asking me about how I felt.

I shared that if I don’t get enough water, I am fatigued and even nauseous. I asked her  if she had let go of the responsibility of her kidney performing well in her recipient. This is a thing I felt at one point and researched

For a while, I felt that if the kidney didn’t do well, iI would feel responsible for that. Realistically I knew that was not accurate, but had to do some heavy chats with myself to make the feeling go away. It took about 18 months to fully exonerate myself from ownership of that guilt. She has been feeling the exact same way.

I enjoyed our chat. I was so glad to hear her recipient is thriving.