4/1/26

I got Paul with ann April Fool’s joke. I told him his paycheck was significantly less than it was supposed to be. He started to freak out a little. “April Fools!” I told him. 

I totally got him.

 Ethan and I were texting back and forth today. He was sharing that he is obsessing over getting the supplies he needs to make fireworks for the 4 th. He theorized that he feels he has little control of things in his life and he thinks it is so he has something to look forward to. 

He has vacation time over the 4 th of July and is really looking forward to that. His friends are going to be joining as well. He knows he can control the fireworks he makes and buys for the fireworks display, control when he gets the supplies and control WHEN he will make the ones he is going to make. We got into a discussion about control.

He feels like it is something he has control over. So he is going to move forward with buying the fireworks. He has found a whole sale store and has plans for what he’s picking up. He has figured it will save him about 60%.  I was proud of him for doing that research.

As an adult we all like control over something. Don’t we? Maybe it is just us. Maybe we are just a bunch of weirdo-control freaks? I will accept it because I certainly am not going to pivot my coping skills at this point.

I have been advocating for Ethan to make as many choices with his barndominium as he can. Sometimes Paul will try to take control over things that Ethan should be making decisions about. I have to remind Paul that Ethan should be making that decisions. It is hard to take the parent hat off and let the kid make decisions. It is part of our growth process.

When I feel like things are “out of my control” I default to cleaning. I can control how clean my environment is and that somehow quiets the beast named worry. What do you do for control when you feel like things are “out of control”? We all do something right? It’s so interesting.

Sarah come over for the night. It was nice visiting her. She just had a birthday (she is 25….again just like me!).

For Sarah’s birthday I got us a hotel room next weekend. We plan to eat like pigs, watch HGTV and laugh a lot. It is her birthday gift, but it benefits both of us.